Bottle Rotten '95

I bottle up my terrors

in self-prescribed libations

while drying out the night sweats

on a clothesline called the bar.

I sing the body electric

in a bathtub with a vacuum cleaner

praying that the fuse blows

me straight into the light.

I walk through my conscious laughter

into hazy ragged dreamscapes

of yesteryears gone haywire

and tomorrows not to come.

I huddle half nervously

near the bottle in front of me,

doubting its superiority

to a frontal lobotomy;

still, this kid's shaking safe

in her burning peptic embrace.

Toilet of Beauty

My father grows old in the toilet,

a desolate room

with the air thick as mold.

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He works life there in perpetual sweat,

a captain of industry

building factories of sick.

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Little bits of wonder found in claustrophobic vistas

often linger in his melancholy,

kissing the linoleum.

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The mirror blissfully out of reach,

my father hugs his friend,

wrapping his arms 'round the cold white wet.

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Yes, my father grows old in the toilet

amidst his softly sour splatter,

the holy cracking plaster,

and half finished caulking consecrating his divine.

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So many contemplations,

so many toilets of my own

since a childhood spent listening to my father pray.

The eternally pungent confessional,

with a compassion beyond religion,

kneeling, catharsis, release ...

Until a trembling tug of the handle

flushes the misery for a moment from his mind.

And from mine.